I'm starting to betray blogger for onsugar, I'd probably need people to start relinking, but we'll see how it comes about (:
Well, reason I should be blogging now would be about my life and all. Well recently, I've been a bit better as compared to last time. Things are starting to tie up, loose ends are untying by themselves - conflicts are starting to erupt. But thats probably part of the teenage expectations you'd probably forseen for panicking sec fours and emoing ones. Now you're part of teh crew, fancy non? haha - anywho. Life's been good (:
One, I met more people. Prefects in particular, heh - some of them are real cool people, you know, ignoring sometimes the cling on to childhood innocence where things are just fun and games and when you're really pissed they don't notice it? Yeah. But all in all, they really fun-loving people. I'm making it a note to myself to know the secondary ones before my final year.
Two, I've been more happier than usual. Subconsciously emo for the past few days ( or perhaps months ). But still think about life a lot more than usual. Like why do things happen and why it happens now out of all times? Its like, you spent time building this wonderful structure and then an earthquake happens following it a tsunami and then a hurricane. Then when you want to build it back, the boss comes along and say you have a week to finish it - its like that.
Although I've come to realise a few things? .__.
Not that this applies to people in particular, but just things I noticed about myself, especially
When you emo, you're seeking attention and want to be pitied. But fact is - people will pity you for the first few times and worry, but there is nothing they really can do. Life doesn't go the way you point, you can point all you want - but life is going to go where its supposed to go, it knows where exactly to go - and it doesn't need you to tell him who's boss. Hardships are like crossroads, you want things to be solved with little effort, but its going to take a lot more than just " I wish this would be solved " to do it. Friends can only say " is there anything i can do " and " good luck "
I tend to overexaggerate, it might be an INFP thing. But the two things I probably hate most is criticism and conflict. Conflicts usually those directed towards me and all, but I just can't stand when people 'hate' or 'don't think he's part of us'. That pretty much summarises what i hate about most, but I'm not perfect and I just can't please anyone, emoing won't help either, cause people hates me for that. Still, I guess those who really care are the ones who're still your friends .__. Someone who likes you for you? Hm - maybe so. Critism, I somehow percieve criticism as a personal attack, usually the reason why I am so competitive. Probably the reason why I sugar coat my critique .__. Anywho, when people are like " I think the other one is better " To you its like what it is, but to me its like saying " Your standards have dropped, its starting to get sloppy! " kind of comment. I don't know, maybe critique is not my thing .__. but either ways, I'll still have to bear with what I can do with.
My life goal is actually
1. Making a difference in someone else's life ( hopefully something big )
2. Be a *good* friend
But I'm never usually really good in being a friend on its own. But I guess before I embark on the journey to my life's goal I'll have to...
1. Learn what it takes to be a good friend - what do people really like in a friend? ._.
2. Learn that before I put myself in someone's shoes, I have to take off my own.
3. Learn to be happy.
There isn't really an end in this lesson on friendship, is there?
Cause in life,
You just can't please everyone.
Not even yourself.
Cheers.
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